words remain unspoken
line of vision carefully avoided
no sense of nostalgia yet felt
no sense of guilt nor sadness hanging in the air
i guess this is what you get when your daughter is an exact replica of you?

anyways, i am not feeling miserable yet. probably because of the anger and 不甘愿-ness in me? okay, i know i'm being a bad daughter but oh wells. this is just me. i'm not going to bow down first for something you said.

busy with pw all afternoon. poor zhiwei had to put up with my emo-ness this morning when he sent a extremely pissy msg in the morning. too bad that it was the first thing i read when i wake up. X) finished my part waaayyyy before the deadline (8pm. =.= i just sent it and it's 5 now! ^^) proud of myself nehs~~

now that i have almost nothing on my back, i feel so much more relaxed and light. kids central is getting extremely mature i don't see how it cater to kids now. it features bitch fights in school, backstabbing, cute guys hitting on girls in the show didi is watching now. how different is that from watching shows on channel 5?? o.0

ayi called and, let just say she gave me another huge boost encouragement. HAHA! ok, maybe it's due to the msg i sent wrongly yesterday but her words really made me feel so much better. she stated everything that i was thinking and feeling, and apparently, she doesn't mind that i wasn't performing well. her words were a stark contrast to those of her, and although she does chide me time and again, i can feel her concern for me and i get that fuzzy warm feeling within me. i felt loved. that was all that i was searching for, i guess, a sense of acceptance and appreciation. thanks ayi, for lifting my spirits! :)

i realise that it is at my darkest hour where i start to know who genuinely cares for me. for example, pauline and weilun, both of whom never forgets to ask me how i am everyday. poor weilun is sick now. stupid him got himself more sad when he asked her for medicine. oh wells. this is what you get when you are so retardedly in love. even when you know you won't receive anything, you still want to try.

going out with julien tonight!! she's still baking though. i shall continue my date with phoenix wright before going out to meet her. :D sammi's supposed to come but she's pangsehing us for her friends. probably guys. HAHA! anyways, enjoy your night, sammi! me and julien will enjoy ourself, oh yes we will! XD

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tagreplies;

sammi; oh crap, i did ah? die la...... i'm so not going to reveal my blog to her can!! >.< take this secret with me to my grave!!

joyin; LOLS! you funny la. only you will comment on my emoticons. AND, i can imagine you rolling your eyes as you say it! HAHA! XD anyways, ya! im very strong de!! heees. anyhow, i do think that the emoticon smiles like you. heeees. :D

Labels: love 幸福 kids central lemon bars

words remain unspoken
line of vision carefully avoided
no sense of nostalgia yet felt
no sense of guilt nor sadness hanging in the air
i guess this is what you get when your daughter is an exact replica of you?

anyways, i am not feeling miserable yet. probably because of the anger and 不甘愿-ness in me? okay, i know i'm being a bad daughter but oh wells. this is just me. i'm not going to bow down first for something you said.

busy with pw all afternoon. poor zhiwei had to put up with my emo-ness this morning when he sent a extremely pissy msg in the morning. too bad that it was the first thing i read when i wake up. X) finished my part waaayyyy before the deadline (8pm. =.= i just sent it and it's 5 now! ^^) proud of myself nehs~~

now that i have almost nothing on my back, i feel so much more relaxed and light. kids central is getting extremely mature i don't see how it cater to kids now. it features bitch fights in school, backstabbing, cute guys hitting on girls in the show didi is watching now. how different is that from watching shows on channel 5?? o.0

ayi called and, let just say she gave me another huge boost encouragement. HAHA! ok, maybe it's due to the msg i sent wrongly yesterday but her words really made me feel so much better. she stated everything that i was thinking and feeling, and apparently, she doesn't mind that i wasn't performing well. her words were a stark contrast to those of her, and although she does chide me time and again, i can feel her concern for me and i get that fuzzy warm feeling within me. i felt loved. that was all that i was searching for, i guess, a sense of acceptance and appreciation. thanks ayi, for lifting my spirits! :)

i realise that it is at my darkest hour where i start to know who genuinely cares for me. for example, pauline and weilun, both of whom never forgets to ask me how i am everyday. poor weilun is sick now. stupid him got himself more sad when he asked her for medicine. oh wells. this is what you get when you are so retardedly in love. even when you know you won't receive anything, you still want to try.

going out with julien tonight!! she's still baking though. i shall continue my date with phoenix wright before going out to meet her. :D sammi's supposed to come but she's pangsehing us for her friends. probably guys. HAHA! anyways, enjoy your night, sammi! me and julien will enjoy ourself, oh yes we will! XD

--

tagreplies;

sammi; oh crap, i did ah? die la...... i'm so not going to reveal my blog to her can!! >.< take this secret with me to my grave!!

joyin; LOLS! you funny la. only you will comment on my emoticons. AND, i can imagine you rolling your eyes as you say it! HAHA! XD anyways, ya! im very strong de!! heees. anyhow, i do think that the emoticon smiles like you. heeees. :D

Labels: love 幸福 kids central lemon bars